《2 new+moon新月》第93章

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the　reason　your　hair　stands　on　end　when　you　smell　me。　They　are　the　substance　of　your　nightmares；　the　
dread　behind　your　instincts。　I"m　not　unaware　of　that。〃　
〃And　you　take　her　to　them　like　a　bottle　of　wine　for　a　party！〃　he　shouted。　
〃You　think　she"d　be　better　off　if　I　left　her　here　alone；　with　Victoria　stalking　her？〃　
〃We　can　handle　the　redhead。〃　
〃Then　why　is　she　still　hunting？〃　
Jacob　growled；　and　a　shudder　rippled　through　his　torso。　
〃Stop　that！〃　I　shouted　at　them　both；　wild　with　impatience。　〃Argue　when　we　get　back；　let"s　go！〃　
Alice　turned　for　the　car；　disappearing　in　her　haste。　I　hurried　after　her；　pausing　automatically　to　turn　and　
lock　the　door。　
Jacob　caught　my　arm　with　a　shivering　hand。　〃Please；　Bella。　I"m　begging。〃　
His　dark　eyes　were　glistening　with　tears。　A　lump　filled　my　throat。　
〃Jake；　I　have　to—〃　
〃You　don"t；　though。　You　really　don"t。　You　could　stay　here　with　me。　You　could　stay　alive。　For　Charlie。　
For　me。〃　
The　engine　of　Carlisle"s　Mercedes　purred；　the　rhythm　of　the　thrumming　spiked　when　Alice　revved　it　
impatiently。　
I　shook　my　head；　tears　spattering　from　my　eyes　with　the　sharp　motion。　I　pulled　my　arm　free；　and　he　
didn"t　fight　me。　
〃Don"t　die；　Bella；〃　he　choked　out。　〃Don"t　go。　Don"t。〃　
What　if　I　never　saw　him　again？　
The　thought　pushed　me　past　the　silent　tears；　a　sob　broke　out　from　my　chest。　I　threw　my　arms　around　his　
waist　and　hugged　for　one　tooshort　moment；　burying　my　tearwet　face　against　his　chest。　He　put　his　big　
hand　on　the　back　of　my　hair；　as　if　to　hold　me　there。　
〃Bye；　Jake。〃　I　pulled　his　hand　from　my　hair；　and　kissed　his　palm。　I　couldn"t　bear　to　look　at　his　face。　
〃Sorry；〃　I　whispered。　
Then　I　spun　and　raced　for　the　car。　The　door　on　the　passenger　side　was　open　and　waiting。　I　threw　my　
backpack　over　the　headrest　and　slid　in；　slamming　the　door　behind　me。　
〃Take　care　of　Charlie！〃　I　turned　to　shout　out　the　window；　but　Jacob　was　nowhere　in　sight。　As　Alice　
stomped　on　the　gas　and—with　the　tires　screeching　like　human　screams—spun　us　around　to　face　the　
road；　I　caught　sight　of　a　shred　of　white　near　the　edge　of　the　trees。　A　piece　of　a　shoe。　
19。　HATE　
WE　MADE　OUR　FLIGHT　WITH　SECONDS　TO　SPARE；　AND　THEN　the　true　torture　began。　The　
plane　sat　idle　on　the　tarmac　while　the　flight　attendants　strolled—so　casually—up　and　down　the　aisle；　
patting　the　bags　in　the　overhead　partments　to　make　sure　everything　fit。　The　pilots　leaned　out　of　the　
cockpit；　chatting　with　them　as　they　passed。　Alice"s　hand　was　hard　on　my　shoulder；　holding　me　in　my　seat　
while　I　bounced　anxiously　up　and　down。　
〃It"s　faster　than　running；〃　she　reminded　me　in　a　low　voice。　
I　just　nodded　in　time　with　my　bouncing。　
At　last　the　plane　rolled　lazily　from　the　gate；　building　speed　with　a　gradual　steadiness　that　tortured　me　
further。　I　expected　some　kind　of　relief　when　we　achieved　liftoff；　but　my　frenzied　impatience　didn"t　lessen。　
Alice　lifted　the　phone　on　the　back　of　the　seat　in　front　of　her　before　we"d　stopped　climbing；　turning　her　
back　on　the　stewardess　who　eyed　her　with　disapproval。　Something　about　my　expression　stopped　the　
stewardess　from　ing　over　to　protest。　
I　tried　to　tune　out　what　Alice　was　murmuring　to　Jasper；　I　didn"t　want　to　hear　the　words　again；　but　some　
slipped　through。　
〃I　can"t　be　sure；　I　keep　seeing　him　do　different　things；　he　keeps　changing　his　mind…　A　killing　spree　
through　the　city；　attacking　the　guard；　lifting　a　car　over　his　head　in　the　main　square…　mostly　things　that　
would　expose　them—he　knows　that"s　the　fastest　way　to　force　a　reaction…〃　
〃No；　you　can"t。〃　Alice"s　voice　dropped　till　it　was　nearly　inaudible；　though　I　was　sitting　inches　from　her。　
Contrarily；　I　listened　harder。　〃Tell　Emmett　no…　Well；　go　after　Emmett　and　Rosalie　and　bring　them　
back…　Think　about　it；　Jasper。　If　he　sees　any　of　us；　what　do　you　think　he　will　do？〃　
She　nodded。　〃Exactly。　I　think　Bella　is　the　only　chance—if　there　is　a　chance…　I"ll　do　everything　that　can　
be　done；　but　prepare　Carlisle；　the　odds　aren"t　good。〃　
She　laughed　then；　and　there　was　a　catch　in　her　voice。　〃I"ve　thought　of　that…　Yes；　I　promise。〃　Her　voice　
became　pleading。　〃Don"t　follow　me。　I　promise；　Jasper。　One　way　or　another；　I"ll　get　out…　And　I　love　
you。〃　
She　hung　up；　and　leaned　back　in　her　seat　with　her　eyes　closed。　〃I　hate　lying　to　him。〃　
〃Tell　me　everything；　Alice；〃　I　begged。　〃I　don"t　understand。　Why　did　you　tell　Jasper　to　stop　Emmett；　why　
can"t　they　e　help　us？〃　
〃Two　reasons；〃　she　whispered；　her　eyes　still　closed。　〃The　first　I　told　him。　We　could　try　to　stop　Edward　
ourselves—if　Emmett　could　get　his　hands　on　him；　we　might　be　able　to　stop　him　long　enough　to　convince　
him　you"re　alive。　But　we　can"t　sneak　up　on　Edward。　And　if　he　sees　us　ing　for　him；　he"ll　just　act　that　
much　faster。　He"ll　throw　a　Buiclc　through　a　wall　or　something；　and　the　Volturi　will　take　him　down。　
〃That"s　the　second　reason　of　course；　the　reason　I　couldn"t　say　to　Jasper。　Because　if　they"re　there　and　the　
Volturi　kill　Edward；　they"ll　fight　them。　Bella。〃　She　opened　her　eyes　and　stared　at　me；　beseeching。　〃If　there　
were　any　chance　we　could　win…　if　there　were　a　way　that　the　four　of　us　could　save　my　brother　by　
fighting　for　him；　maybe　it　would　be　different。　But　we　can"t；　and；　Bella；　I　can"t　lose　Jasper　like　that。〃　
I　realized　why　her　eyes　begged　for　my　understanding。　She　was　protecting　Jasper；　at　our　expense；　and　
maybe　at　Edward"s；　too。　I　understood；　and　I　did　not　think　badly　of　her。　I　nodded。　
〃Couldn"t　Edward　hear　you；　though。"〃　I　asked。　〃Wouldn"t　he　know；　as　soon　as　he　heard　your　thoughts；　
that　I　was　alive；　that　there　was　no　point　to　this？〃　
Not　that　there　was　any　justification；　either　way。　I　still　couldn"t　believe　that　he　was　capable　of　reacting　like　
this。　It　made　no　sense！　I　remembered　with　painful　clarity　his　words　that　day　on　the　sofa；　while　we　
watched　Romeo　and　Juliet　kill　themselves；　one　after　the　other。　I　wasn"t　going　to　live　without　you；　he"d　
said；　as　if　it　should　be　such　an　obvious　conclusion。　But　the　words　he　had　spoken　in　the　forest　as　he"d　left　
me　had　canceled　all　that　out—forcefully。　
〃If　he　were　listening；〃　she　explained。　〃But　bel