《2 new+moon新月》第95章

name　now。　I　wasn"t　sure　what　the　difference　was。　Maybe　because　I　wasn"t　really　planning　on　living　much　
longer　without　seeing　him。　Or　at　all；　if　we　were　too　late。　It　was　forting　to　know　that　I　would　have　an　
easy　out。　
〃I　doubt　they"ve　ever　had　a　situation　quite　like　this；〃　she　muttered；　disgusted。　〃You　don"t　get　a　lot　of　
suicidal　vampires。〃　
The　sound　that　escaped　out　of　my　mouth　was　very　quiet；　but　Alice　seemed　to　understand　that　it　was　a　
cry　of　pain。　She　wrapped　her　thin；　strong　arm　around　my　shoulders。　
〃We"ll　do　what　we　can；　Bella。　It"s　not　over　yet。〃　
〃Not　yet。〃　I　let　her　fort　me；　though　I　knew　she　thought　our　chances　were　poor。　〃And　the　Volturi　will　
get　us　if　we　mess　up。〃　
Alice　stiffened。　〃You　say　that　like　it"s　a　good　thing。〃　
I　shrugged。　
〃Knock　it　off；　Bella；　or　we"re　turning　around　in　New　York　and　going　back　to　Forks。〃　
〃What？〃　
〃You　know　what。　If　we"re　too　late　for　Edward；　I"m　going　to　do　my　damnedest　to　get　you　back　to　
Charlie；　and　I　don"t　want　any　trouble　from　you。　Do　you　understand　that？〃　
〃Sure；　Alice。〃　
She　pulled　back　slightly　so　that　she　could　glare　at　me。　〃No　trouble。〃　
〃Scout"s　honor；〃　I　muttered。　
She　rolled　her　eyes。　
〃Let　me　concentrate；　now。　I"m　trying　to　see　what　he"s　planning。〃　
She　left　her　arm　around　me；　but　let　her　head　fall　back　against　the　seat　and　closed　her　eyes。　She　pressed　
her　free　hand　to　the　side　of　her　face；　rubbing　her　fingertips　against　her　temple。　
I　watched　her　in　fascination　for　a　long　time。　Eventually；　she　became　utterly　motionless；　hei　face　like　a　
stone　sculpture。　The　minutes　passed；　and　if　I　didn"t　know　better；　I　would　have　thought　she"d　fallen　asleep。　
I　didn"t　dare　interrupt　her　to　ask　what　was　going　on。　
I　wished　there　was　something　safe　for　me　to　think　about。　I　couldn"t　allow　myself　to　consider　the　horrors　
we　were　headed　toward；　or；　more　horrific　yet；　the　chance　that　we　might　fail—not　if　I　wanted　to　keep　
from　screaming　aloud。　
I　couldn"t　anticipate　anything；　either。　Maybe；　if　I　were　very；　very；　very　lucky；　I　would　somehow　be　able　
to　save　Edward。　But　I　wasn"t　so　stupid　as　to　think　that　saving　him　would　mean　that　I　could　stay　with　him。　
I　was　no　different；　no　more　special　than　I"d　been　before。　There　would　be　no　new　reason　for　him　to　want　
me　now。　Seeing　him　and　losing　him　again…　
I　fought　back　against　the　pain。　This　was　the　price　I　had　to　pay　to　save　his　life。　I　would　pay　it。　
They　showed　a　movie；　and　my　neighbor　got　headphones。　Sometimes　I　watched　the　figures　moving　
across　the　little　screen；　but　I　couldn"t　even　tell　if　the　movie　was　supposed　to　be　a　romance　or　a　horror　
film。　
After　an　eternity；　the　plane　began　to　descend　toward　New　York　City。　Alice　remained　in　her　trance。　I　
dithered；　reaching　out　to　touch　her；　only　to　pull　my　hand　back　again。　This　happened　a　dozen　times　before　
the　plane　touched　town　with　a　jarring　impact。　
〃Alice；〃　I　finally　said。　〃Alice；　we　have　to　go。〃　
I　touched　her　arm。　
Her　eyes　came　open　very　slowly。　She　shook　her　head　from　side　to　side　for　a　moment。　
〃Anything　new？〃　I　asked　in　a　low　voice；　conscious　of　the　man　listening　on　the　other　side　of　me。　
〃Not　exactly；〃　she　breathed　in　a　voice　I　could　barely　catch。　〃He"s　getting　closer。　He"s　deciding　how　he"s　
going　to　ask。〃　
We　had　to　run　for　our　connection；　but　that　was　good—better　than　having　to　wait。　As　soon　as　the　plane　
was　in　the　air；　Alice　closed　her　eyes　and　slid　back　into　the　same　stupor　as　before。　I　waited　as　patiently　as　
I　could。　When　it　was　dark　again；　I　opened　the　window　to　stare　out　into　the　flat　black　that　was　no　better　
than　the　window　shade。　
I　was　grateful　that　I"d　had　so　many　months"　practice　with　controlling　my　thoughts。　Instead　of　dwelling　on　
the　terrifying　possibilities　that；　no　matter　what　Alice　said；　I　did　not　intend　to　survive；　I　concentrated　on　
lesser　problems。　Like；　what　I　was　going　to　say　to　Charlie　if　I　got　back："　That　was　a　thorny　enough　
problem　to　occupy　several　hours。　And　Jacob？　He"d　promised　to　wait　for　me；　but　did　that　promise　still　
apply？　Would　I　end　up　home　alone　in　Forks；　with　no　one　at　all？　Maybe　I　didn"t　want　to　survive；　no　
matter　what　happened。　
It　felt　like　seconds　later　when　Alice　shook　my　shoulder—I　hadn"t　realized　I"d　fallen　asleep。　
〃Bella；〃　she　hissed；　her　voice　a　little　too　loud　in　the　darkened　cabin　full　of　sleeping　humans。　
I　wasn"t　disoriented—I　hadn"t　been　out　long　enough　for　that。　
〃What"s　wrong？〃　
Alice"s　eyes　gleamed　in　the　dim　light　of　a　reading　lamp　in　the　row　behind　us。　
〃It"s　not　wrong。〃　She　smiled　fiercely。　〃It"s　right。　They"re　deliberating；　but　they"ve　decided　to　tell　him　no。〃　
〃The　Volturi？〃　I　muttered；　groggy。　
〃Of　course；　Bella；　keep　up。　I　can　see　what　they"re　going　to　say。〃　
〃Tellme。〃　
An　attendant　tiptoed　down　the　aisle　to　us。　〃Can　I　get　you　ladies　a　pillow？〃　His　hushed　whisper　was　a　
rebuke　to　our　paratively　loud　conversation。　
〃No；　thank　you。〃　Alice　beamed　at　up　at　him；　her　smile　shockingly　lovely。　The　attendant"s　expression　was　
dazed　as　he　turned　and　stumbled　his　way　back。　
〃Tell　me；〃　I　breathed　almost　silently。　
She　whispered　into　my　ear。　〃They"re　interested　in　him—they　think　his　talent　could　be　uselul。　They"re　going　
to　offer　him　a　place　with　them。〃　
〃What　will　he　say？〃　
〃I　can"t　see　that　yet；　but　I"ll　bet　it"s　colorful。〃　She　grinned　again。　〃This　is　the　first　good　news—the　first　
break。　They"re　intrigued；　they　truly　don"t　want　to　destroy　him—"wasteful；"　that"s　the　word　Aro　will　
use—and　that　may　be　enough　to　force　him　to　get　creative。　The　longer　he　spends　on　his　plans；　the　better　
for　us。〃　
It　wasn"t　enough　to　make　me　hopeful；　to　make　me　feel　the　relief　she　obviously　felt。　There　were　still　so　
many　ways　that　we　could　be　too　late。　And　if　I　didn"t　get　through　the　walls　into　the　Volturi　city；　I　wouldn"t　
be　able　to　stop　Alice　from　dragging　me　back　home。　
〃Alice？〃　
〃What？〃　
〃I"m　confused。　How　are　you　seeing　this　so　clearly？　And　then　other　times；　you　see　things　far　away—things　
that　don"t　happen？〃　
Her　eyes　tightened。　I　wondered　if　she　guessed　what　I　was　thinking　of。　
〃It"s　clear　because　it"s　immediate　and　close；　and　I"m　really　concent